Starting To Feel Good!

I don't understand why I have these feelings every time I gets spanked....I used to hate getting a spanking from my dad but now as I've gotten older they have started to feel good....whats wrong with me? Now I go out of my way to make my dad mad by coming home late or talking back....I get a rush of excitement when he tells me I'm getting a spanking! I look forward to feeling his hand blister my butt! I wish I could find someone to spank me with out getting into trouble all the time! Am I the only boy in the world who feels this way?